☽ A Midnight Secret☽
By Emily R. Inman
I am awake
I can easily break
when I’m awake alone.
I stir and I sigh, not a gleam in my eye,
I can’t smile, or laugh this time
An hour passes by, I silently cry, take another half pill, and I wait
My lover is asleep, and even when I squeak, he sleeps heavily and does not feel the weight
I sneak out of the room, puppy paws follow, and I sit on the couch and write.
Hoping that getting it off my chest will help me sleep tonight.
But I’ll tell you a secret that my body knows, the reason brain and bones do not want to slow..
When I wake up from a beautiful dream, the nightmare of pain envelopes me.